Sunday, November 21, 2010

My Life? Part One

My life. Ha. I don't think that it ever has been my life. Ever since I was born something has been guiding my life. Hell, I shouldn't have even been born. No, that's not some self-pity bull, nor is it depression; it is simple fact. My mother was told that she could never have children. Then she got pregnant. I was an emergency c-section nine months later. As soon as I was out of the womb I had to be placed on life support because I could not breath. I got better.
             My first kiss was the neighbour girl when I was three. Ha. It's amazing what one remembers. Such small events that stick in the back of your mind, leaping forward when you least expect it.  Such small events that become a place of shelter, a place your mind dwells when it is hurt or worried. Life is filled with these small moments of tranquillity. We must savour these. I moved away from her, the neighbour girl, when I was four. I wouldn't see her for almost fourteen years. The memories I had of her stayed in the back of my mind all those years only to spring forward when we got back in touch. The mind remembers more than we know. We may remember the sting of a thorn, but the mind always remembers the smell of the rose. 

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Thoughts on a warm day in November

God
creator of all
provider of all
you care for us
sinners
creatures most foul
you love us
you provide for us
we run away
you wait with open arms for our return
we fall away
you pick us up
undeserving, you love us
inconceivable was your sacrifice
to give one's own
for those not worthy
love so strong
wrongs are forgiven
dead are raised
love so strong
we do not deserve
yet still you give
forever faithful to the unfaithful
love that breaks through all barriers
love is your's
our love belongs to you
my love is...

Summer in November

summer's heart in winter's grasp
tables now turned
summer's lingering eye stave off winter's heat
the heat of cold
that freezes bones
rebuffed by the still smiling sun
couples joined by hand
adorn the street
while children and young-hearted play
the summer's heat warms even the most cold

Thursday, October 28, 2010

gone

slowly
losing it
the will
the want
gone?
never there
a dream?
delusions
of self
self-lacking
self-less
mindless
following
without direction
stumbling in
orderly
mindless
self-less
directionless
gone.

seasons

Fall


colours dot the skies
colours carpet the earth
fall
beauty plays a deadly game with gravity
royalty falls
gold is trampled underfoot
life fades through beauty
beauty that is soon hidden by inevitable
which is beauty in itself





Late Summer


summer
months too late
heat during the cold
glee replaces depression
smiling faces everywhere
living rooms empty
backyards full
summer in fall
spring in summer
Joy fills the heart of the most cynical
eyes bright
people are open
beauty fills the air
summer in fall

lost

lost
the mind stumbles
wondering
am i here?
why
the mind is lost
this was once my home
now
it's not right
i am lost
seas
of tranquility awash with
doubts and wonderings
beguiled
lies tumble around
my soul is lost in a mire
Lost
Confused
Wrong
Missing
Joy
the mind is the mind
and we can do nothing
lost
in our own minds


forever

love


this was a poem that I had written for Easter, but never posted. Enjoy.



life and death come together
joy and despair are hand in hand
love and hate dance as lovers
everything has a pair
every pair has a strong half
death ends life
despair ends joy
hate ends love
but life has no end,
death no sting
through despair joy grows
stronger than before
love destroys hate
it breaks down all barriers set before it
love shines through the cloud of despair
love laughs at death's feeble attempts
love can blind us
love can heal us
love is all
love is nothing
without a cause
Easter answers all